Are you winking at enough guys?

The statement "are you winking at enough guys?" got me into loads of trouble the past few weeks. Josh said this to me as I was deciding to give up on dating through match.com. The next day I got winked at by a guy and I returned the wink. This lead to me and the guy we'll name the possessor to start dating. It was too much too fast. We went out three times in one week. The week before Valentine's Day no less. So on the second date, he bought me an expensive bracelet and took me to Best Buy to look at Sony Readers as a future present. On the third date, I made him dinner for Valentine's Day and he brought me a stuffed Monkey. It was on this date I knew I was going to break his heart. He liked me way more than I liked him. He wanted to know where I was and what I was doing at all times. If I didn't start my day off talking to him, he thought something was wrong. And he had serious issues with the other people in my life. He wanted to know all about Josh and I's relationship. Which I told him we worked on youth stuff together. He also didn't seem to like that Katie was soulmate. I'm sorry guys but it's the truth. She's my soulmate and you're just someone to have fun with. The possessor was sweet and I really did try to make it work. But on the fourth date, he got a little impatient with me because I was running a few minutes late. Then he gave me the third degree about the youth movie night I was going to the next night. The last straw was when he sent me a text not even 5 minutes after parting that said thought about you. I know I'm a girl I should like this stuff. But I don't. I'm super independent and the idea of marriage scares me. It is way too soon to be talking the "M" word before you've been dating for a while. I'm beginning to think I'm not cut out for dating. I have one more month on Match.com and I guess I'll keep trying. But after my month is up, there is a good chance I'm done with it all for a while. I'm sure that there is a guy out there who is nice but not too nice. Who is interested in me but doesn't make his whole life about me. Someone who knows that I have a lot going on and these things are important to me. But until then, I always have my soulmate Katie and all my other friends and the youth. I'm pretty sure I'd rather go cosmic bowling or to an ice bears game with them instead of an awkward date. That might just sum it all up for me.