Nerves

So this Sunday I'm "preaching" at a small church. I say "preaching" as opposed to preaching because I do not consider myself a preacher. I don't even consider myself a speaker. I'm just trying this out. I feel strongly that I need to do things that stretch myself and challenge myself. Speaking in front of people about God is one of those things. I'm so nervous about it though. I feel like whatever I have to say is stupid and my ideas are not coherent. I've asked several friends to help me with it but in the end it's something I have to rely on God to help me through. And I think that is part of the challenge. I don't like to do things I'm not good at and I don't like to be bad at things I'm doing. But I'm not a great speaker. I teach Kindergarten and get tongue tied doing that sometimes. I like talking to small kids and that's about it. But I know this is something God is calling me to try out. So I'll try it out on Sunday and try not to throw up in the process.